The circus came to oxford today! I managed to find willow here, she lives with her parents here now apparently, hi willow if you're reading this :). Anyways she came to the show and afterwards I invited her to drink with us crew. She kept calling me Mako which was kinda weird, I ain't been called that for like 2 months, I almost forgot hedge wasn't my name. Mako feels better but funny. Meistro got kinda pissy that she was drinking with us though, and when he found out I was gonna go to uni here in a couple months he got a weird look and called me into his caravan to talk to him. He said that he's invested a lot of training into me, and I'm dillisional if I think I'm gonna quit and go to some uni program when I didn't even finish school. He said he gave me thousands of pounds worth of training and I still owe him for hundreds of pounds worth of drinks he bought me. I said I ain't paying for that, my job is to go get drunk and meet people for the circus so he threw an empty bottle of jim bean at my head. It bled a lot and I stormed out bcs like, fuck that guy. I don't remember getting here but I'm writing this in Gene's dorm. Tiptoe is sitting on his bed tryna convince him I'm not concussed, but I think me and her are gonna split from the circus for a bit.
Sorry it's been ages since i've updated you all, been super busy. They tried a couple names for me, kebab and juicy, but ended up calling me hedgehog. Apparently someone stuck an orange on one of my horns and I didn't notice for about 10 minutes. Which I don't remember, but I do remember washing.. something sticky out of my hair so I'm gonna hope it's the orange thing. Apparently hedgehogs roll on fruit to pick it up with their spikes and then feed it to their babies? The last couple towns we went to didn't have internet cafe's and my phone's not been working great, so I haven't spoken to anyone but circus folks in a hot minute. I'm kinda pissed off at meistro though, he docked all my pay last month for my costume, and this month he says he's gonna have to take most of it cause I didn't earn enough to cover my power bill last month. Personally I ain't see why they had to get me a costume cause all I'm doing on site is cleaning up popcorn and making candyfloss. But hey, I'm having a good time! My costume looks damn good, I never knew guys could wear fishnets or crop tops but apparently looking kinda gay helps a circus? I have been to sooo many clubs and kissed more people than I can count- guys and gals. They got me and tiptoe busking at the train station again tomorrow, I'm supposed to play music and she's supposeed to walk on the railings in her cat suit. I've been trying to learn to move like her, but her drunken stumbling makes my dancing look like Hannahs first steps. And I'm a damn good dancer.
I think we're going to Wessex or Bromley next week? Can't remember. Will catch up when I can.
So, a lot's been happening this past week. I spoke to the ringmaster and he said he's looking for more people to sell tickets, and he said I could travel with, if I could play instruments and flirt with people so they come to see the circus. He said that there's barely funds for it, but since I got my own camper he says I can come with them. We're headed to Sussex tomorrow and he's gonna give me a tenner each night cash for drinks and then 250 quid minus expenses each week. I'm actually gonna be so rich and all I gotta do is go dancing every night. Me and Tiptoe and Krystal and Jamie and Bambi are celebrating with a barbecue tonight, and they said they're gonna get me drunk and come up with a cirus name for me. Apparently nobody here is actually called what they're called, for the mistique of it, whatever that means. Banshee said she'll teach me to juggle knives too.
I'm better now. I wanted to go somewhere with people, so I went to a place that had a circus. I watched the show and honestly, it was amazing. I'm certain they're all magic. They let me park with them and- they have generators! I finally have electricity. I've missed hot rice. There's this acrobat, tiptoe (I don't know her real name, she wouldn't tell me) who did a one handed handstand on my washing line. She's a tiefling like me and I think she's the coolest person I've ever met. I think I'm going to ask the ringmaster if I can travel with them. Me and half the troop are at the internet cafe in town, so I have to log off quick because there's a queue, but if you're looking for me, find the cirque de phe'nome'ne. I can't do the accents on the e's so I used aprostrophe's but it's spelt like that.
I got sick. Throwing up in a chemical toilet sucks. Cleaning it out after sucks more. I miss my dad. Medicine is too expensive. Hitting your horns on a toilet seat really hurts. I don't wanna be alone.
I am currently in an internet cafe in somewhere called Maidstone, which is either in Kent or in London or maybe not either I don't even know. I've been travelling for like a week and it's been so Fun! I keep going to different bars and playing the guitar, and people keep buying me drinks. When they ask where I'm from, nobody's even heard of Darlon upon Avon, which is a weird feeling. I've been eating a lot of sandwiches and camping in a lot of random car parks. It's actually so cold inside the camper, I sleep wearing my hoodie and I still wake up shivering at like 4am. But I've been working on this cool spell, which is like, a tiny room that's warm and cozy. Once I get it set up, I'm gonna put it on top of the camper so I can sleep watching the stars. I miss the stars tbh, they're really faint here by the city. Apparently when you get to London there aren't even any.
The music sounds different here.
Happy New year everyone! I've spent the week eating so many fancy foods and packing the campervan. It doesn't have electricity unless I find somewhere to hook it up, but I ended up just taking the rice cooker to make Mama happy. I got 3 gas canisters so I can cook whenever I'm parked. It also has a single bed, a pole that sticks out so I can dry laundry, a tiny sink with a tank of like, 3 gallons, which isn't that much really. It doesn't have a shower or anything, but it has a chemical toilet which I do not wanna use because it's gross emptying it. But it has a cassette player, and my baby sister Hannah made me a painting for good luck. Apparently it's supposed to be us, but it looks more like a lopsided girrafe to me. I head out in a week and I might not be able to update so often until I hit somewhere with an internet cafe but I promised I'd keep this place updated so my friends know I'm safe.
My mate Noelle made me a mixtape of sweet music to drive to a while back. I'm gonna miss all my family and all my friends but I think maybe Noelle most. I know she'll be back for term in September but she's gonna get herself hurt up again I just know it. Noelle, if you're reading this, if you tell anyone I said that i'm gonna throw my shoes at you. I will actually drive to your house to throw things at you. Don't pretend you don't know I will.
So yeah, it's Christmas day. It's also, if you know me, My 18th birthday. But all my friends are busy having their own Merry Christmas again, so I'm just with my family. But I can't complain. With my money, and my parents too, for my birthday christmas I got the coolest thing. It's kinda beat up, but I don't care. It's a Campervan! This means my parents finally are gonna let me cut school and take a gap year. I mean, I already got into Oxford, an unconditional scholarship, so I convinced them there really really wasn't any point in going to school anymore. Since school don't even technically know someone called Mako exists, I guess they agreed it wasn't worth it for like, 6 months of education in stuff I'm not even going to Uni for. So I'm going to go to the school of the world and travel! I'm gonna leave in 2 weeks, so leave a comment if you've got anywhere I should visit. I've got 9 months to kill before semester starts.
